Comfort sounds

Been noticing that I'm looking for familiar sounds.  Yes this is a world of new sounds for me, but there are a few sounds that would bring great comfort if they sounded similar to sounds from the past.  In a previous post I said the ocean sounded like a crowded room of people all talking at once.  Today I went back, the sound changed from two weeks ago, but it still wasn't the familiar roar, slapping, or spraying sound.  It actually didn't sound much different than a bunch of cars passing me as I walked.  Cars sound like pouring rain on a tin roof.  I really have to guess at some these comparisions, but at least cars are not squealing or sound like radio static.

So my comfort sound comes from listening to this Bob Fitts tape, or from singing or humming familar songs in a quiet place.  If a piano was handy, I'd probably sit down and try out one note at a time, looking for resonance with remembered sound.

My friend told me I sang higher notes at church.  Singing with the CI it is a matter of stepping out in faith, because it is impossible to hear my own voice among the others.  The speaker spoke so fast that I would normally have tuned him out pre-CI, but this time it was borderline, heard his points, but not his one-liner jokes.  He spoke so fast it seemed like someone hit fast-forward on the video!

The annoying noises turned out to be the bathroom fan, the refrigerator and a motorcycle.  All are sounds I've picked up over the past three weeks, they just seemed to bug me today.

But the vocals and the guitar of the singers really stood out this week compared to my last map.  I've noticed the longer twangs, that are still a mystery to me, but I like that sound.  If I could create it, it just might annoy everyone around me, but turn into a comfort sound for me.  Not likely to stay that way, because this hearing shifts into new territory every week.  For example, the sound of birds used to overpower everything, but now they are softer compared to the rest of the sound world.  I'll bet the volume on my device is still the same for the frequencies the birds are on, but for sure the audiologist increased all the lower tones and middle tones.

Yes I love this world of sound, and I also notice that my sense of security is being shaken. There's no way I'd go back, but it isn't much different than entering a new and foriegn culture, and there's sign of culture shock.  Seriously!  It will settle down, it gets better, yet right now it isn't comfortable.  Yup, I'm going to keep looking for sounds of comfort, and they'll be there for "I know whom I have believed"