Do I like this map?

Got stressed out with the new map, yet I did really well on the phone with a co-worker.  I heard her voice before seeing the text on the screen of the Cap-Tel phone. In the midst of getting this wonderful hearing, I still have to tell myself to just relax and let the sound come to me.  Even my old map seems to have changed, but it really is just a matter of perception.  My next mapping (adjusting the frequencies loudness and softness) will be at the three month marker.

In trying to describe this stress to hearing people, it must have sounded that I was ungrateful.  Yet it happened once before.  On my second mapping, I experienced the twitching for the first, the cars sounded like they were squealing and nothing seemed to sound "comfortable."  That evening and the next day really set my teeth on edge.  Sound has the ability to soothe, but also to irritate.

Another illustration of my sound just came to mind.  Ever try enlarging a picture off the website and you see it looks really grainy?  When I've had a new mapping, I seem to "see every grainy spot" in my hearing.  It doesn't seem right.  Yet the picture does show the people or scene well enough.  That's what happens with my sound.  I take the "magnifying glass" to the sound and it seems really grainy and off.  But with time some of these sounds that irritate actually make sense and the "threat" reaction dies down.  Just as soon I quit holding the "magnifying lens" to the sound, it is just like my brain fills in the missing half-frequencies (I made up this term) and I can enjoy the music again.

Well that's enough analysis for today.  Besides, this habit of mine of writing at midnight isn't doing my face any favors, by the looks of the bags under my eyes in the morning!