Overload

Tonight I listened to a woman speaker who was much more difficult for me to hear than the fellow who spoke Thursday evening.  Finally decided to turn up the CI volume even though my eye would twitch more.  Overloaded my poor nerves.  Funny thing happened though.  The twitching grew "quieter" as time passed.  I'm listening to music and the twitching is barely perceptible now.  So turning up the volume gave me some clearer speech sounds, yet high-pitches are still hard for me to comprehend.  There is a definite preference for male singers than for women singers.

Best way to put the "glitch" in high-frequency voices is when it gets louder, it becomes squashed, loses its distinctiveness and grates on my nerves!  A child's scream at the top of his lungs becomes "visible" only on the warbles that aren't as loud.  It is almost like going in and out of clear sound, a radio that is cutting in and out.  The sound doesn't stop, just the distinctiveness of it.

I feel grateful for the sound at the same time as scheming what needs to be changed.  I want to sing and hear my voice in midst of a choir.  Sounds need to be smoother.  Fine-tuning to eliminate the restrictions that I sense would take it to a higher level.  I don't want high-frequencies to dominate, but those are the ones that seem to have a quick-cut off point.  Sounds are not allowed to get louder at a pre-determined point.  All the same music has the power to bring tears to my eyes.  To hear and enjoy music is a privilege I'm spending lot of time catching up on.

Another post after midnight.  I really need to get some sleep.